Still can't figure out how I could have made such a blunder. It is almost like I slowly drifted off, fell asleep and woke up one morning, something in my head clicked. Oh Shit! What have I done?
I know how I gained weight. I ate too much, too much of the wrong type of food. That is easy to understand. It is difficulty to understand how I could lose focus.
I left Okinawa, went on the road and left my discipline behind. Came back and it took about 1.5 weeks to snap out of my haze. Madness.